Thursday, April 3, 2008

help angel help.........


I ws told by my mumma, when I ws a child that there is a angel who always there with us in every walk of lyf and when ever we suffer from bad times she makes everything fyn and turn things in our favour…

I know its just a story wch she uses to tell whn I use to cry fr silly things but today I really want that angel to change things fr me.. hey angel I really need you yaar plz help me out…

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

life...


Today a thought came into my mind n I asked myself that what’s life??....... I thought for a while and realized that am I a fool.. I m living it from almost last 19 years and now I wanna know what is life??... weird totally confussed!!!!

I thought for hours n concluded that life is divine.. its beautiful, a perfect gift n d most precious one given by God itself…And its all about living it to fullest in the best possible way..and living it on our conditions n not even giving a dam what others say… it’s all about spreading love, making people around u smile, caring fr ur luved once n bla bla bla……

But suddenly another thought came which made me so restless.. coz this tym it was no more bookish definition of live or motivational dialog from some typical bollywood movie… b’coz this tym it ws a thought which came deep from my heart n frm my experiences so far…

And I concluded that life is sumthing which will alwys show u an unexpected thing wch u would hav never dreamt off even in ur wildest dream n it will cum to u as a tight slap on ur face and u will feel helpless u wont have place to hide n u will b hurted like anything and at last u will realize that ya life this is what’s life……unpredictable, vast and beyond our imagination, surprising… and u will know that “haan its true zindagi humme kab kahan kya aur kaise rang dikha de its hard to even imagine… aur haan zindagi sach mai humse badi hai aur zindagi jab chahe jaise chahe humme apne isharon pe nacha sakti hai”……

And then again I thought then what’s d way to live.. shall we leave everything and live a depressing life after our broken dreamz, hurting painful memories n fucking experience’s of life with tears rolling down our eyes alwys and becoming insomniac, blaming ourself or our destiny for all these things……… and answer is NO…. ya u read it right NO!!!

The best way is to learn from ur past start a new life n not to loose hope… hav courage to walk ahead no matter hw many times u fall… and never ever compromise….. and just remember its d biggest challenge to live the life as it cums.. don be afraid show life hw difficult u are.. live d way it cums that too with full courage n to the fullest... and jus remember life will never be easy....!!!

SO ALL THE VERY BEST FOR YOUR LIFE’S…… ENJOY IT, IT’S NOT SOO BAD……

Saturday, March 8, 2008

when i realised sumthing.....

We all know life would have been a hell without our great pals.. and no one wants to depart frm their best friends… and every one wants their relation to go on n on n on…….

I asked a question to one of my best friend today.. I asked that can u tell me hw long will we both be friends and to that I added two words forever or always??... And let me tell u I just wanted to pull her leg on this that’s why I asked her this(and i think she also knew this)…. But honestly telling I was surprised when she send me the answer she said “till the last breath that we take on this earth… simple” and what to tell you all, I ws so moved by the answer that I hav no words left to express myself… but mayank bechara aadato se maara jus to pull her leg I replied “even after that”

Her simple answer made me realized that hw feelings can be shared in such simple words and I was really feeling bad even for asking her this but i was still happy coz at last like a true friend she showed me the right path by giving such a simple and wonderful answer.

Well truly saying I don know hw our friendship will go n time will lead us where but still I will be highly obliged to my destiny for giving me such a wonderful friend.

Thanks dear thx fr always being there……

Monday, March 3, 2008

MEMORIES : ALL WHAT I HAVE EARNED

Days past and never come back…..but I wonder y it doesn’t happens with memories hmmmmm????

Why there is this fucking thing existing in this world hmmm……..and y the hell everyone is addicted to it…..??????

Its not that I m not bound to memories of my life but it’s one of those valuable thing wch I can never frget and trust me I really don want too…. But honestly telling these memories hurt me badly deep inside….at times it brings smile on my face but for most of d times it takes my smile away n leave my eyes wet ……It's sumthing wch is continuously breaking me deep inside but still I love this pain and its really fun to get carried away with these memories b’coz it takes us to those fun filled n golden era of our life wch we never wanna loose and at the same time it takes us to those fucking pals of our lives wch we really don wanna remember!!!!!!

And these memories are also fun to spend time coz they make us laugh fr d pals we earlier cried fr n makes us cry like a baby fr those pal wch we laughed with our 32s !!!!!!!!! funny na but don u think its really true?????? Hey don get carried away coz I haven’t told u the best part yet……….and that is that people though change frequently n unpredictably but the memories alwys remain d same thats y i think we all are addicted to memories hmmmm?????……..

So thankful to those memories of my life wch I will definitely treasure fr rest of my life no matter even if dey hurt me like anything but still they alwys make me realize that hw often people change in this hypocrite world…….

Friday, February 29, 2008

big dilemma.... :((

I always thought that i lived my life on my conditions and i don't regret for things i have lost.... but today i don't know why but i feel so helpless n restless..
Its not that i don know what my problem is but its that, that i don have a solution to it... Why it always happens in life that the person whom we always want to remain in our life is the first one to leave us and never turns back when we really need that person... Why it happens in life that the person who we love beyond everything cheats us and never feel guilty for that... Why it happens in life that the person who we think to be our world is the person who hurts us badly... Why it happens in life that the person who we think is my life and without whom i am incomplete is always complete without us and lives happily... why all these things happen?????????

just wanna know why????...... i know there's no answer for these questions in my mind but all i say to console myself is - "we always desire for things we don deserve
and all these things happen coz our destiny has decided to give us beyond our desires and will bestow us with all those things wch we really desereve"
So as a great optimist i console myself but sumwhere deep in my heart there's sumthing poking me that why our desires are not fulfilled??
after all yaar its our life n we know what we want then too we don get it?? i know i m talking ironically but its a dilemma i m going through......
and there's no answer.!!!!.... :((

Thursday, February 28, 2008

friends : u all are my life!!!!

who cares what others think about me...i m least interested. But it really matters what a friend of your think about you...isn't it??? hmm i know u all will agree with me coz in this world of countless people we meet many people daily but there are very few who makes impact in our heart and in those few we find sum frends for lifetime... and they can be trusted blindly anytime and they r alwys der to care fr us to help us whenever we need them and they are our real friends... a person can be complete without love but without friend no one is complete... and it really hurts when their's sum misunderstanding between friends.... coz personally talking about myself i m incomplete without few of my friends... and i m sure no one is complete without friends... and you know whats the best part of a friend is, its that- "a friend is someone who knows everything about you but still loves the way you are"

and for all my friends i love you all the way you are and i really treasure our friendship...... please always be there by my side because i will always need u all and it really matters what u think about me n i m deeply hurt when i hurt you....